Spring has Sprung!
It's been a long winter, hasn't it?
Sometimes we forget that if you stand still, whatever it is will pass.
November was the month that I lost my twin babies. I would never have imagined that I could sit here and remember them without completely losing it. But, as time moves on, they will never leave me, but I have to move on in order to be a good mother for the child that I am planning to have. I need to be present.
It's hard. I wish I could pick all of my battles, but I can't. So I stand still and move forward. As I start this next round of IVF, I am terrified. I think about the sonograms, the excitement, the nursery planning...and I am afraid to get excited. Who is the next angel that will be sent to me? Will it be a boy or girl? I'll just stand still and see.
Sometimes we forget that if you stand still, whatever it is will pass.
November was the month that I lost my twin babies. I would never have imagined that I could sit here and remember them without completely losing it. But, as time moves on, they will never leave me, but I have to move on in order to be a good mother for the child that I am planning to have. I need to be present.
It's hard. I wish I could pick all of my battles, but I can't. So I stand still and move forward. As I start this next round of IVF, I am terrified. I think about the sonograms, the excitement, the nursery planning...and I am afraid to get excited. Who is the next angel that will be sent to me? Will it be a boy or girl? I'll just stand still and see.
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